A time before today I waved goodbye

For years I've been away

With tears in my eyes

I hope I made you proud

I'm living life

Away under a cloud

That rains all the time

The island I was raised disappeared without a sign

Has it really been erased?

Is my family alright?

I miss my mom and dad. I really need a guide

A home is what I had

But it slipped beneath the tide

The feelings that are brewing are a product of the mind

Denial's my undoing

But it bottles up inside

To see and not believe when islands vanish overnight

I'd try to write to mine

But my parents won't reply

Back again across the waves

Say a lie and I'm okay

"The letters never sync

They're just a ferry boat away"

Perhaps they never loved me and they're too afraid to say

They waited for the day I came of age to sail away

Don't cry

Don't think of the times I

Didn't say what you meant to Mii

Don't cry

Don't think of the why's I

Didn't say home's where I'm meant to be

This is just a bad dream

How can I smile when

My horizon's family?

This is just a bad dream

How can I smile when

My old island turned to sea?

This is just a bad dream

Have you ever had a doubt street- pass as you wept?

That the friends you live without deep- laughed when you left?

I remember being taught

I remember all the tests

I remember when we fought

As I rest inside a tent

Oh, I'm so upset I won't forget a heart made of stone

I know regret! I know it's bent on not letting go

I should have been torn between leaving my home

Or "living the dream" on the sea on my own

So how am I to grow when I'm left to ruminate?

I'm aware enough to know who I met will drift away

So I hug my bear with hope there's no truth to what I say

Cause I'd love to have a home even though it's never safe

Tell me why? What's the deal? Got a memory of a face?

All of mine? Were they real? Fueling fire to the flames

Thinking I shouldn't feel for the choice to move away

What the mind won't reveal- murky muddy every day

Don't cry

Don't think of the times I

Didn't say what you meant to Mii

Don't cry

Don't think of the why's I

Didn't say home's where I'm meant to be

This is just a bad dream

How can I smile when

My horizon's family?

This is just a bad dream

How can I smile when

My old island turned to sea?

This is just a bad dream

How can I smile when

My defiance stranded me?

This is just a bad dream

How can I smile when

I'm reliant on a dream?

This is just a bad dream

I'd rather sit inside with the stories in my head

But the fear is in my mind with the worries and the dread

It's a lot seeing god when they're not who you met

It's a loss with the cost and a lost cause ahead

I'm tired of the puzzle

I'm tired of the stress

I'm tired of the trouble

I'm tired of the mess

Inspired by the struggle

To find what I left

Retired under rubble

A life never led

I don't know where to go

But I know that I care

Even though

Never shown

I will hope that they're there

But the boat

Rows alone

As I row past my share

Of unknown

Humble homes

With my own

Left to spare

Love and grief can look alike

Persevering when you die

I've been searching all my life

With the promise that I'll try

I don't even buy the lies

Told to try to sleep at night

All the tears still haven't dried

Breathing far less than I cry

Need my mom to wipe my eyes

Tell me everything's alright

How she's proud and how she finds

There's no doubt I'm growing wise

I'm so sorry you and I

Drifted far between the tides

I can't say we'll reunite

Cause the truth is this is just a bad dream

How can I smile when

my horizon's family?

This is just a bad dream

How can I smile when

My old island turned to sea?

This is just a bad dream

How can I smile when

Only silence speaks to me (I'll tell myself)

This is just a bad dream

How can I smile when

I'm reliant on a dream? (I'll tell myself)

This is just a bad dream (Don't cry)

(A time before today I waved goodbye)

How can I smile when (Don't think of the times I)

My horizon's family? (Didn't say what you meant to Mii)

(For years I've been away with tears in my eyes)

This is just a bad dream

(Don't cry)

(I hope I made you proud I'm living life)

How can I smile when (Don't think of the why's I)

My old island turned to sea? (Didn't say home's where I'm meant to be) (Away under a cloud)

(That rains all the time)

This is just a bad dream

(Don't cry)

(The island I was raised disappeared without a sign)

How can I smile when (Don't think of the times I)

My defiance stranded me? (Didn't say what you meant to Mii) (Has it really been erased?)

(Is my family alright?)

This is just a bad dream

(Don't cry)

(I miss my mom and dad. I really need a guide)

How can I smile when (Don't think of the why's I)

I'm reliant on a dream? (Didn't say home's where I'm meant to be) (A home is what I had)

(But it slipped beneath the tide)

This is just a bad dream

I'll tell myself

This is just a bad dream

I'll tell myself

This is just a bad dream